Lately I have been feeling the need to write this blog. I’ve neglected my blog for a number of reasons for years now.
My blog started as a way to make my stamp online as I began to nourish the idea of running my own creative business in early 2012.
At the time, I was passionate about creating a blog, having my own website and telling my own stories – about why I became a writer, a counselor, a women’s health advocate, a birth junkie, and more. When I started my blog, I was done having babies and wanted to make a major investment into creating a dream career for myself. It was time to figure those pieces out. I had joined up with an amazing group of creative women and we were all supporting each other on our unique joy-filled paths. A lot of us were blogging and it was a great time as we all started our businesses.
When I started my blog, I had been consulting for just a few months for a company based out of New York. I had done a lot of work with this company, but they wanted me to come on board with more responsibilities. I was writing, editing and offering online support and education to men and women who desperately wanted to become parents. This job merged my dreams of working from home and working in the women’s health field in a creative and supportive way. Since this consulting position was new, I felt that I needed to create a second line of income – you know – just in case things didn’t last too long. Hence, the blog came along.
For that second line of income, I had decided that I wanted to become a doula to new mothers and possibly a registered, certified prenatal yoga instructor. I shared those dreams on my blog. I shared them a mere month or two before moving to a new state and settling down – finally – with my husband and children.
What happened next was not quite what I expected. My husband, finally done with graduate school, was providing the family with a full income for the first time. We all could breathe a sigh of relief that we were done moving around and had some stability and a firm foundation to help us build up the rest of our lives.
My consulting work continued, and I made enough money working part-time that I could be involved with my children after school, in the evenings and on weekends. I was able to work flexible hours, from home. I started to realize that this was my dream job. I wasn’t teaching yoga, but this writing work was totally what I wanted in my life. And it allowed me to do the things I loved. This was my dream.
As time passed, I blogged less. I chose to make my consulting work a priority – to make my children and husband a priority. I made being present and focusing on my health, family, friends and spirituality a priority. And – these priorities got in the way of me chasing my doula/yoga teacher dream. I didn’t have time or the desire to do that anymore. Life was already full. I chose not to get certified in yoga. I chose not to write blog posts anymore because there was so much else GOOD going on in my life and I didn’t want to miss out. I wanted to be present. I wanted to spend my time creating goodness and soaking it all up.